It's funny how journeys begin and how they press on. The combinations of events that change and mold you. It's almost like certain things were placed there for the sole purpose of direction, mold ability, and design. But no matter how perfect it seems to line up for us, there will always be that part of you that wants to resist design. That tries to convince you that comfort is what is wanted. But if our heart is in our head, than we should crave that design like a starving child. We should drip and reek of passion that is so contagious it overwhelms. Knowing this then, the only question left is, what is your design?
Life is not about coincidences, but about seeing through the pain and smiles and what it's leading you to. Your design is like a magnet every pulling you in. And yet, despite the powerful properties of a magnet, we still choose to fight it. And we wonder why we are so tired. I feel like my whole life I've been resisting that pull, without even knowing it. So I've reached a point where exhaustion has set in and surrender is inevitable. I'm going to fall towards the pull of my designer and continue on this journey. I am headed back to Asia mid March to work with a girl's home I have become burdened for miles away, and I cannot begin to explain my excitement, happiness, and nervousness of following what I feel like for the first time is part of my design. My life has been a series of events that maybe just maybe have led me to this. The permeation of my soul and the surrender to my design. As for now that is all I know, a small truth I will hold onto ever so tightly.
Friday, January 25, 2013
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
New Year Craziness
It's the new year and with that comes wanting to sharpen and better oneself. There is just something about starting fresh and wanting to try again at the things we probably screwed up last year.......that drives people mad. Craziness is in the air, from wanting to be healthier, smarter, and even more (I guess you could say) spiritual. All these things we want to be. To be better at. But it seems like they are all things that we 'want'.
Right now I am working in a juice bar for a health store.....so I am a personal witness to the increase in number of people's interest in fresh juices and wanting to be healthier. And today, as I was fulfilling my normal juice duties....a beautified soul was talking with me and at the end of our conversation that consisted of mainly juice, she said these words that honestly kinda stuck. They were not words like everyone else says which usually are, "Happy New Year, hopefully you get what you want this year." She said to me......" I hope this New Year brings the things you don't even think you want, may it be blessed and beautiful." So I began to think about.....the things I don't think I want? What could that be? And then I began to think that was exactly it. All the things we usually shy away from, are the things that sharpen us and mold us. How can one know pleasure without first experiencing pain? So I have to ask you.....If you want all of the new things with the new year...... then sometimes you have to have what you don't think you want. It might take you down roads that seem the wrong way. So don't be afraid in this new start.....to take risks and get a little messy. My view of the new year has changed a little, in that instead of getting excited that I get to start fresh and new....I'm excited that I might struggle once again through some things because that is all a part of the refining process. I'll be honest, this past year has not been all sunshine and rainbows. For those of you that know me, can testify that this year has been the hardest challenges for me and Jake. Life has thrown us curve balls, and we still are somewhat sorting everything out from 2012. But it's funny, cause despite all the left turns when we thought we should go right......we grew and grew and grew. So, yes, want things for this new year, but also grow to accept the things you don't want.....because in reality they will lead to that end goal.
Right now I am working in a juice bar for a health store.....so I am a personal witness to the increase in number of people's interest in fresh juices and wanting to be healthier. And today, as I was fulfilling my normal juice duties....a beautified soul was talking with me and at the end of our conversation that consisted of mainly juice, she said these words that honestly kinda stuck. They were not words like everyone else says which usually are, "Happy New Year, hopefully you get what you want this year." She said to me......" I hope this New Year brings the things you don't even think you want, may it be blessed and beautiful." So I began to think about.....the things I don't think I want? What could that be? And then I began to think that was exactly it. All the things we usually shy away from, are the things that sharpen us and mold us. How can one know pleasure without first experiencing pain? So I have to ask you.....If you want all of the new things with the new year...... then sometimes you have to have what you don't think you want. It might take you down roads that seem the wrong way. So don't be afraid in this new start.....to take risks and get a little messy. My view of the new year has changed a little, in that instead of getting excited that I get to start fresh and new....I'm excited that I might struggle once again through some things because that is all a part of the refining process. I'll be honest, this past year has not been all sunshine and rainbows. For those of you that know me, can testify that this year has been the hardest challenges for me and Jake. Life has thrown us curve balls, and we still are somewhat sorting everything out from 2012. But it's funny, cause despite all the left turns when we thought we should go right......we grew and grew and grew. So, yes, want things for this new year, but also grow to accept the things you don't want.....because in reality they will lead to that end goal.
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